Speaking of Social Security...

In my previous post I said I shouldn't have to pay for social security if I am never going to receive it...at least that is the rumor. It's so funny that I was talking about it because I received my social securtiy statement yesterday. I have a good chunck of change in there it even breaks down when and how much I will get when I retire. Is this true? Or are they just toying with me. Like, hey you have all this money but it belongs to some old people you don't even know and you'll never see a dime! I can just hear a little munchin man laughing in the background. Does anyone know or heard if the rumor of social security running out is still true?

Worried little girl

Life is good I can’t really complain. Jesse and I are happy, I have great friends and family, a place to live, a running car, a great job. So why am I so stressed lately? I may not show it all the time but I worry. I worry about finances, health, gas prices, where will I live in the future, etc. I guess because things are going good now there is always a chance life will catch up with you at some point. When will I payoff my credit card…as soon as I get all my teeth fixed? When will all my teeth be fixed and how much will that cost me this year? Why did I eat so much sugar when I was a kid? If I don’t payoff my credit card how will I ever save money for an emergency or Vet bills? When will I be ready to stop smoking? If I continue jogging will I be healthy and will I have a flat stomach again? If jogging doesn’t work I will have to join a gym. I can’t afford a gym right now. How can I have fun this summer if I can only afford to fill my gas tank once a week. $25.00 just barely gets me to work and home until next payday. Oh whoa-es me. We are living in a time where companies are laying off Americans and taking our jobs overseas. If this continues and gas prices go up, we will have twice as many people struggling to make it and possibly a gas shortage. Remember 1974? I worry because it’s hard enough today. What is going to happen 2, 4, 6 years down the road? Should I invest more money into my retirement? I won’t have much money to play with now and have debt forever but I will be comfortable when I retire. I think that is important to me seeing as I won’t get social security when it’s time. Even though I pay for it now I will never see that money. I don’t think I should have to pay it now if I won’t ever get to receive it. What a rip off. This is mostly what I worry about when I have nothing better to do.

The little thing I call a hobby

Since I have always wanted to play guitar I started taking lessons about 2 years ago. Unfortunately I had to stop taking lessons after a year. My day for lessons was on a Friday right after work which was fine by me but bringing my guitar to work got to be difficult. I currently work in 2 buildings so that requires me to travel during the day. One building I am in from 9:00a.m. to 12:00p.m. then I drive across the street to another building and I am there from 1:30p.m. to 5:15p.m. I would have to lug my guitar out of my apartment put it in the car, drive to work take it out of the car, bring it in to work for the morning, then at noon bring it back out to the car drive to the other building, take it out of the car again carry it for the long walk to my second location, then at 5:15 take it back out to the car, drive to my lessons in Grayslake, take it out of the car for my lessons, then back in the car after my lesson, then finally out of the car for the final destination home. Why didn’t I just leave it in the car you ask? To begin guitars are delicate instruments. I happen to have an acoustic and the temperature outside could really put strain on the wood and damage it. Just imagine the morning being cold and then the sun comes out warming up the car even though it’s still cold outside. Drastic change in temperature is not good. I have a point to this I swear I am done complaining. Since I am not taking lessons anymore doesn’t mean I have stopped playing. I practice at least 2 times a week and even have a couple little ditties floating around in my head. Jesse came over last night and I was in the middle of practicing so he gave me some good advice. He told me I should record what I had made up and then showed me the scale for what I was playing. He explained that is how the singing comes in by finding the scale for the cords. So I got to thinking and I realized I have known that for years. Remember in Sound of Music that song, Do, Rei, Me? Well that whole song is about how to start singing using the scale of Do, Rei, Me. I have been blind all these years. If I had known 2 years ago that is how it works I probably would be singing in a pub somewhere by now. I don’t want to be famous this is merely a hobby and a way to make my poetry more fun.