Need to Vent
I thought we had it good. Things were going so well and then out of left field these feelings had come over him. Was it the fact that I live in the city, was it that he couldn't afford to come out to see me, was it the kids? Was it the fact that he was trying to start his life over and I just didn't fit in anywhere? These are questions that will never be answered leaving me with a hollow heart. He says it's not me but how can I believe that when he says he can't be himself around me. I am not the kind of person who make someone feel that way...am I? I knew that we could've gone somewhere, I knew we would've been great, I knew it would've been effortless...I knew it was too good to be true. Damn my myself for jinxing it like that. Some people find their soul mates, some people don't. I may be wandering the planet alone and maybe that is not so bad...right? I should except my fate. Should I give up on the idea that someone can love me as much as I could love them? What a stupid world we live in. There has only been 1 other time that I knew these feelings were possible...why do they fade away? Why do we falter as human beings? Will he ever be able to feel that way again? I know once I have negative feelings they can never return so I guess I have my answer right in front of me. I am not the one, he is not the one, we will never be one.






